Hey gonass,
Relax, if that's really how you feel and interpreted my intentions you got to excuse me. Was just trying to motivate you to join, but sort of failed anyway, so don't take it the wrong way. To me Paintball is a competitive sport, and I don't cry when I get hit, instead I just try harder. It's all fun and games, and maybe a little edgy, but still in good spirit. With digital one I guess this isn't as clear. As you say you wouldn't have joined either way. I know it takes guts to make a map, especially when you're starting out. I would have given you more props for trying, because sometimes the journey can be just as rewarding as finishing. If it's fun enough you might even finish something naturally. I have deep respect for all those developing their creative talents, especially mappers and those willing to accept a good challenge no matter the odds on a short notice.
Cheers,